So i randomly remember this site because someone sent me a cute userpic thing. Hello how are you old friends? I will be graduating from college in December and I feel old all the time. My mom always says coffee is for grown-ups and therefore i feel that my generation is all growing up way too fast. I've been drinking coffee since 16.

Anyhow chris and I are in a house now. Renting till i move to Cali. I'm so nervous about all the choices i'm making adn if they're the right ones. I was thinking of doing a blog about something like on Julie and Julia...Not exactally like that but...you know?

Any ideas?

Seven weeks ago i posted something here ad i have no idea what it said because i dind't go back and read it. I'm probably going to delete this just so everyone is aware. I never post and I never feel like posting.

So we're going to NC next Friday. I just have to look at things fr face value and realize how things are working out so well. Chirs is going to fund most of the trip with his open house money.

ON another note i was totally disappointed in the Harry Potter movie. Book aside I just didn't even realize i watched a movie. It ended and I was in a state of WTF? lol Going to get another tattoo today on my back. Pics later on facebook and myspace. Things are so good right now i just have to remember to relax! I'm so focused and moving forward sometimes that i have a hard time living in the now. the guys are over right now. Brandon, Blane, me and Chris are just having a chill day. Girl day yesterday....except Chris was there. :-P

Hope everyone is doing well.

I'm so frustrated right now. Chris wants to go down and see our friend Tuesday in North Carolina. There just isn't money for everything! i mean he doesn't have a steady full time job and I can'e take more time off to go with him. I don't really want him taking my car out of state alone. Even though he's a great driver it's just....idk. whatever i'm over writing this because it's just a lot of repeated nonsense.

things with Chris and I are better than ever. So nice to have learned over this break. I took time for myself too. however i have another gripe. I don't know i guess I'm just discouraged about us. I feel like i do all the talking and I don't really know what's going on with you or your thoughts as of late. I mean i know Charlie and stuff...and...i don't know is it just that there is so much going on in my life and not in others because you're not the only one i feel like this with or do i just have noncommunicative friends. I enjoyed hanging out the other day. people say they just don't have anything going on right now and there's no point in repeating the same things that have been going on but I just feel weird because no one has anything going on. I get that people are only half way through college but I'm almost done and it makes me feel like I'm bragging or talking too much or...something...it also makes me feel like I'm the only one trying in the relationships i have managed to maintain and it's tiring.

I mean I'm traveling, have my own place, love my job, have a wonderful boyfriend who has three jobs and is now working so hard for us and I'm really moving forward in my life....

I'm not trying to put anyone down I just wish someone else had something to talk about!

Chris and I are on a break and it's weird but i need him to know i'm the best he's ever going to have which sounds conceited but...I mean everything is kinda messy and i'm not even really sure what happened we definitely did not argue it is on good terms yeah...i dunno it's just weird well he' 18 and we've been together for a year and 8 months and he just graduated high school.....so there's all that life out there to figure out and I don't want him to regret anything later and I want him to know that I love him and we talked about it a lot and i want to be mad and harsh and I am a little i'm hurt but i think...actually i'm pretty sure we'll get back together and he loves me more than a sister and i'm his best friend and I don't understand why he doesn't know if i'm the one is it because it would be scary and ludicrous to find the one so young? but we have the same to similar values, goals, ideals, joys and woes and everything.

He hasn't been 100% here and I give a lot to this relationship....so I can't really handle someone who isn't there right beside me and he's been so distant lately and yet we're closer than ever....which makes no sense.

I feel a littlelotabit empty and could really use some support. I'm pretty sure it won't last the month we gave it but....maybe it should....i'm all over right now. Really glad i don't have to work tomorrow....anyone....want to do something tomorrow?

Discourgaged. I suppose i'm just distracted or something but I can't help it. I think i'm good at my job adn the guests say i'm good at it but on paper it says i'm not. Tips have steadily been going donwn adn it's just so damn hard to find another job.

Other than that things with Chris are wonderful as always. our year adn a half anniversary is in a week. I got us tickets to see Dane Cook!!!! I can't wait till people come home for the summer. I really miss Jon and being able to talk with him. Well i'm off to make pancakes.

So my life is great. Sorry but it is. I jsut got back from my trip a couple weeks ago and it was wonderful. Living on my own. loving working at Red Robin's. There's nothing to say because everything is jsut so wonderful.

Sure there are ups and downs but over all life is wonderful

I love working at Red Robin's
I love that my trip is so close
I love that life can work out no matter what
I love Christopher
I love being me


5 more days.

Doot doot doot I work at Red Robin's! Come eat, visit, enjoy! I start tomorrow and I'll be an offical waitress by next Sunday. I'm stoked!

Other then that i've been chatting with people from my trip since the group leader made a facebook group. I'm blessed and s happy that things just keep moving along.

countdown at 30 Days.